I can understand your feeling and frustations... I my self found resistence when try to do something ... there is a lots of NO when I suggest some thing. It-s proboly my own fault, I-m not a talker or a sweet talker. I say things as it is. NO sweet coat it
I have been working with non Asien all my life and when they work , it-s work no nonsense, all have the goal in sight and every body pithc in to get to the goal, every body is open mind about news idea etc. To cut to the point I have been bless to work in a big well run company with great team work. I mean really teamwork .... the district where I work the word TEAM WORK and the meaning of it does apply to the 11 stores that I belong to. When enter to Dhamakaya I misstakenly and naively think that it should be like that through out the whole founddation. Because often our LP Ddhamma, LP Tata and Khun Yay have teach us to improve our good personalities and get rid of our bad habit and bad personalities. And our great teachers is teaching the meaning of team work , to meditate a lot etc. Imagine my surprise when I hit the obsticals or see things that is not so appropriate .... and I seriously lost it! Again my own fault coz I-m not use to the Thai system...
I can say with a shame that I should not lost it coz I have seen a lot from other temples I practically grew up on a temple so I know what a real good monk should be or act like and so on. I have read a lots of Dhamma book and dhamma teaching from most of the monks that is well known in Thailand or unkow since the age of 12 yrs ... until now. SO I should know better and be able to stay in my center and in my Buddha. But alas I lost it and it all my fault.
To me harsh word doesnt do much but the resistence and when problems arise some just want to run away or don-t try to solve it , just let it be... all this create a dissapointment in the person which can lead to losing faith coz I have seen sooo much...... I let it get to me, that-s my misstake. But luckily I pulled my self through it by thinking of my own personal goal and the commond goal of our team. Ialso think of LP Dhamma a lot and he and khun yay get me through the
--dissapoint time-- I have had. What I learn is that we are all in progess of improving our self...-hopefully- and in learning process let go of TITI. I learn to smile and look into my self first when something bad happen and then find a private place to meditate. Then I will make a wish that - May I only work or rub boon with the people who have the love of boon and only with a pure sila 5 8 and 227 or those who love to improve themself and their sila and those who like to help LP spread the Dhamakaya meditation as their goal. That-s what I call DREAM TEAM!!
Nong Act na ja just keep smiling na ja and meditate a lot and the solution or help will come to you. Remember all things pass and not thing last forever and that it-s a short time to be human in this age. Be patience na ja nong and keep on fighting!!
It-s good that you share this with us and warn others about it....
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ถ้า ไม่ นึก ถึง เป้า หมาย ที่ ตัว เอง เลือก มา ที่ จะ อยู่ และ ไป กับ หมู่ คณะ
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